Am I afraid to die alone? Good Question!

I am a part of some really awesome groups on the inter-webs! I love the interaction, the thought provoking questions and the laughs! Keeps me on my toes and encourages me to think about things I'd never given thought to before! I came across one question that gave me pause and forced me to think about it with serious consideration. The question was: "Are you scared of growing old alone without a mate?" 

Below is my response to same...

I am not afraid. My preference would be to grow old with a man in a healthy committed relationship. 

Yet when I think about all the effort it takes to make a healthy relationship work by both the man and the woman, it occurs to me that it may not be entirely worth it. I’m beginning to realize that my life might be simpler if I just stayed single. I sure as hell don’t want to waste my time perpetually searching, searching, searching for a compatible male! It’s a waste of my energy. 

If a relationship is not adding something positive and beneficial to my life, I refuse to participate. I must have peace in my life and unhealthy relationships are not peaceful! They bring inequality of shared affections, turbulent emotions, drama, the potential for cheaters to cheat, resentment, displays of immaturity, miscommunication, lying and plain old unhappiness. What’s the point in subjecting myself to that mess? No thank you!!! I will pass! 

I have companionship through my family/friends, groups and the projects in which I volunteer. I can pay my own bills. I can raise my children. I have a toy when I’m horny. I’d rather not be unhappy just to be with a man. 

I would rather be alone for the rest of my days knowing that I’ve lived the best life I can live than sacrifice my peace of mind or joy. #IJS