Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Life Said

Life said: "I never change but you can - if you want to - here's an opportunity."

I thought I didn't have any more energy to "fight" because I had been "fighting" for so long and so hard - I felt I needed and earned some rest. Endgame? Keep "fighting", the "fight" will get me where ever I need to be...real 'rest' will come, when I die.

Life said: "I never change but you can - if you want to - here's an opportunity."

I thought I was overwhelmed because I felt submerged by one event after another. The actuality was, in fact, fleeting, one breath to the next. The hammer will fall - frequently - yet as long as my core-understanding and faith endures, I will maintain then thrive. I can hold my breath 'til I surface...then "fight".

Life said: "I never change but you can - if you want to - here's an opportunity."

I thought I was burdened and a burden because I felt weighted down by situations that I could not predict, control nor influence. I readily accepted the blame for unforeseeable events. Yet, the reality is, there was nothing heavier than the pointless 'worry', I carried. It's time to lay that down. To be free...to "fight"

Life said: "I never change but you can - if you want to - here's an opportunity."

I thought I was hedged 'round by the solicited-offerings of others. But I was trapped. Wallowing in their dance-of-ego where imagery became more important that fact. Pride more important than love. Words were offered - just sounds. Promises made - then broken. Discussions had - then dismissed. Convenient-but-minor assistance was graciously offered with no actual in-roads made while inconvenient-but-helpful assistance stoically withheld and solutions never saw the equation. Those who spoke the most, offered the least but those who spoke the least, offered the most. Now, I see what it means to be the silent minority with the loudest activity....lesson learned.

Life said: "I never change but you can - if you want to - here's an opportunity."

Life will always take the sharp and abrupt turns that glide around gentle curves. Life will be a garden and a desert. Life will be the famine and the feast. Life will be the betrayal and the orgasm. Life never pauses. Ever. It never changes. It is dependable, in that, it cannot be trusted to be eternally evil or sweet-tempered. It cannot be anticipated or controlled...just lived.

It's not fair. So what.

Life said: "I never change but you can - if you want to - here's an opportunity."

It took anger to light the fire underneath my feet and force that second wind into my lungs. It took vision to note the declarations must be built on something. It took passion to refresh my memory about my own strength. To realize - again - that I've walked this path, this far and I don't intend to stop now...until I 'rest'.

Life said: "I never change but you can - if you want to - here's an opportunity."

I said: "I accept."

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